re-alignment

     well, apparently, my body is going through some major re-alignment.  i'm reminded to stay with the process, remember that it is a process, my body is a living process, life is a process.

     one part of my body pulls and strains.  i'm stopped in my tracks, flat on my back recovering from that for a couple of days.  and just as that is calming down and feeling closer to healed than hurt, another area along my spine flares up.  and i go through the same with that, and then another.  "house of cards," someone said to describe my body in this process.  not sure i like that metaphor.  sounds like the whole house is coming down.  but it certainly is functioning like a row of dominoes - one falls and the rest follow.  but my chiropractor tells me that once they've all made their adjustments, it will not start all over again.  that's a relief.

     there are so many variables in this scenario, not sure which one/s prompted this re-alignment.  could be the 1/8" lift i now wear inside my left shoe because a bit of length was shaved off my leg during the surgery.  could be that i'm staying at a friends' house while they're away in africa, and it's a home that quickly felt like mine too - it's warm and cozy and full of life and love and vibrancy and african drums.  because it feels so much like a kindred space, i can and do rest well here.  so maybe my body has released into what it knows is a safe place to do so.  and then there was the massage that i had just over a week ago.  it was the first time on the table when my leg and hip ached so much i couldn't lie still.   so that directed all of the work my fine massage therapist did that day - it included much cranio-sacral work, and also massaging the legs and hip, and a great deal of sensitivity and love on her part.  she was guided by my body and her intuition.  and i guided her too.  waves upon waves of emotion welled up and spilled out of me, loads of energy vibrated throughout my body, and a lot of old, stale stuff was shook off through my hands.  it went on and on and on..   at the end of it, i slowly got off the table, knowing that something had seriously shifted....
     or it could be that larger imbalance being felt.  yes, that one. 

     and it could be all of the above and more...

     anything's possible.

     life is a process, life is a process, life is a process....

     and healing and health are not only individual acts but community acts - it's the collaboration and the love that makes it possible.