it's a rough time. it's been like this the last five weeks. i'm in bed all day. largely zoning out, and trying to manage the pain in my hips, pelvis and back. hospital-type paraphenalia surrounds me. i don't know where this is all leading. or how fast. trying to be open to all possible outcomes, and that also means being very real about all of them.
i need help with the simplest of things. and to be cared for by people who are truly natural caretakers, who do it with genuine love. god knows i need the real deal right now.
i need maximum joy and love in my life. i'm doing everything i can to bring that in and pull it up out of myself and really live it. but i most certainly need help in this regard from the people in my life, from anyone and everyone. now is the time. i need joy and love at full tilt to help me get over this hump.
much love to you all.
