i got it stuck in my head that the session started at 4pm. however, it actually began at 2pm. when i showed up at 4pm the healing ceremony was just beginning.
i slipped into the circle and waited as she went from person to person. when she came to me, she spent most of the time gesturing and sounding around my head and neck. afterwards, i sat there soaking up the reverberations. interesting that she had focused around my head. it often seems that’s where i can get the most caught up, and out. that it’s the workings of my thinking mind that need some healing. how has a pattern of thinking, a mental construct, participated in what afflicts me? and then, as i sat there, up floated this idea and feeling - “i can just giggle my way through this.” through the cancer, i mean. giggling. made me smile, even begin to giggle. why not? and, yes.
can you take that seriously? no! and yes! this gal was walloped by a very serious diagnosis last year. as such, i am fully qualified to suggest what might seem at first, second or third glance, a perfectly silly idea. but i kid you not. the gods are not at all impressed by our dour and fear-based ways. deep love and freely improvised play are the ultimate.
how interesting, no? that it was because i got the time "wrong in my head” that i arrived late for the workshop. and yet, i arrived just in time for the healing, and the healing was all i really needed that day.
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i visited the oncologist for my monthly visit yesterday. these visits are really too close together. and while sloan kettering does their best within that model, it is simply not a place i like to be. big revelation, i know. that is a place that most certainly needs some giggles.
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love to all!
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